home: getting back into the swing of things

We have been back home in Provo now for a month. It has been nice to finally get our stuff ready for the baby, not be living in a single room, and to have a clearer knowledge of what our plans are for the future. (But it is so weird and sad and hard not living close to my parents). Matthew is done with all of his classes in December and will be looking for a internship in the winter. And if all goes accordingly, he will graduate in April. But we could easily be moving in December to wherever he finds an internship. Exciting/nerve-racking. Obviously whatever we/he decides will, I'm sure, be best for our family. But imagining moving with a 1 month old sounds like...sucky. Matthew has been so busy with homework and I have been working at Renaissance and in the salon and let me tell you, I can not work as many hours as I used to without being exhausted and swollen. But luckily it is only for another 7 weeks. When we got back to Utah we got to go straight to Hawaii, just the 2 of us. It was so great, perfect timing. It was so relaxing and I am glad we got to do it before the baby comes. We also went camping in Idaho with friends. It was probably the last time we will go with everyone since Jake and Lindsey decided to move to Oregon. So it was good hang out with everyone before they left. Good bye summer and friends!

I am into my 33rd week now and I am starting to be sick again. wah wah Haven't thrown up yet, but definitely have had the urge. Just try to hold it in, I'd rather poke my eyes out than throw up again. But I have also been very dizzy and achey. And so so uncomfortable. At night I wake up every time I switch positions in bed because my sides ache so much. But luckily I have a husband who is for the most part patient with me and rubs my back several nights of the week before I fall asleep. I am feeling super large and in charge. I can not believe how much Matthew and I's relationship has changed. Honestly I don't know how he deals with me most of the time. I feel so bad for him, wait, and myself, hopefully I will return to my normal self once my hormones calm down in a couple months. For the most part I have not really craved anything, there are things I want more than others and I have an opinion on where and what we eat, but mostly I just want fruits and vegetables and vanilla ice cream. Mister man moves so much. Sometimes it is fun to guess what position he's in etc, but a lot of the time I am a little annoyed of all the moving. It does not feel so great having his legs and bum jabbing my ribs. But I am so excited to meet this little guy and see who he looks like and snuggle his little neck and cheeks!